ignored but later noticed

Spreading the legs of your thoughts,

will make the universes favorite words be

‘fucking’ and ‘joke’.

My fear of a thirst never quenchable,

because my softer side has no grit.

Every day I gazed into rust brown carpet,

that ate more than a last name could.

My spine was against the wilting door,

and even my fingerprints felt ill.

While an outline of a body made with soft Crayola,

looked down on me for 10 stumbling years.

And after those, I managed to steal my Mom’s curves

but forgot her patience,

as well as my manners at 13.

Then there was that day

when the sun felt dryer next to you,

and it absorbed too roughly into my temples.

Spending the entirety of your life with yourself,

will chug your sanity.

I was taught to beat a neck to be too strained to turn.

Then found that in hiding the bad

I misplaced the good on the way.

Now memory is a recollection,

and the pond was built but never filled.

Cracks in hands I wish I could glue shut,

and varicose veins decorating legs to tug on.

And you think wavering emotions

prescribe a cough, and a smack?

Then the passenger seat is where I feel sexiest.

Not knowing who the hell you are, you’ll spit on anything.